So.................where have I been? Truthfully? I've been to Hell and back, that's about all I can say about my long absence.
Forgive my levity around issues of mental health problems, but humour has always been my way of trying to make sense of the world and some of the SH*T we have to cope with at times. Some folks use drugs, alcohol, chocolate or any combination of the three.
Me? I try to laugh out loud at the world, wave my arms about wildly and shout, "OK LIFE - JUST BRING IT ON!"
Unfortunately, sometime around May last year, life well and truly "brought it on." You may remember that my life partner Liam died of cancer a few weeks before I started blogging, and, for a while at least, the distraction of writing held back the floodwaters that would eventually surface. One morning, I woke up and everything just seemed so cold and black. I felt stunned, saddened and completely bereft. I was forced to face the horrendous reality that my life will never be the same again, and I now have to try and discover who this "new me" is and find ways to propel me forward into my future.
I've always been a "glass half full" kind of a girl, but bereavement managed to completely knock me for six, and shook me to the core. If you've never experienced bereavement, try imagining it and then times that feeling by ten. This will give a good idea on the impact that the death of a loved one has on your life.
Sooooooo.........................anyway, enough of that now! The tablets are working and each day I feel a little brighter. I intend to stay as upbeat as possible, examine my small daily pleasures, and thank God for all the people and wonderful moments I do still have around me.
No more so 'til today. What has brought me so much closer to my "usual up-and-atem" self.
Jayden Michael Smith, that's who. "Never heard of him!" I hear you cry. Hang on and I'll tell you!
Jayden is my new grandson, my third grandchild. And so, here I stand, honouring the Circle of Life that forever opens up before us. I realise that just because Liam is no longer with me, there's no reason why I cant still wear my love for him around me as an armour against the knocks of the world.
I do hope that now I'm back you'll stay with me. I promise to only be positive on here after today, and I will tell you some more hilarious tales of derring-do about my life. In the meantime, you will make sure you have your Tenna Lady pads at hand won't you?
Before I go.................I just couldn't resist this. Liam would have found this very funny!
LIAM, so popular but unfortunately no longer availaable
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